Monday, January 30, 2012

What people don't know

Although I believe that we have inbreed instincts in order to keep us safe. We know when things arent right. Walking in the dark we know that spine chilling feeling when we think we have a someone or something following us yet that same judgmental part of our brain jumps to conclusions about people we see every day. I would have missed out on the love of my life had I listened to my first gut thoughts-- I thought what a grit. Then when we parted he said "It was really great meeting you." And I stopped in my tracks literally, turned and saw something. I have never been able to pinpoint what that something was but it changed everything in my life.

But I write about these judgements after I read a Facebook status about the many disease people have that isn't identifiable from just looking at someone. I have one of those disease-- epilepsy. Only sometimes my symptoms peek out-- in the form of eye flutters that I have no control over. People for years have assumed that I am rolling my eyes at them, when the truth is I lose a few seconds of time when that occurs. It embarrasses me when someone points it out to me. For the most part, I am left without the memory of the lose of time.

Sometimes I feel like this is one of the major themes of my life lessons-- never assume you know why a person is acting the way you perceive them to be.